Ama.

I rarely write blogs immediately after something. But this one is SO very special to me. Tonight, I spent the last night with my Ama.

My heart hurts right now and I am sad to be leaving my Ama. Ama, my host grandma for the past four months, has been so much more than my host grandma. She has truly been my best friend. We spend every night together in the house, just she and I. When I come home from school and she is in the shower, she finishes and then we eat together. I shower, then we spend the next few hours talking, or across the hall from each other as she watches T.V. and I go about my night. Ama and I laugh at dinner because she speaks Taiwanese not Chinese, and I speak Chinese. She always tells me at dinner how her teeth hurt so she can't eat things like I do. We pass each other in the hall way and scare each other as she makes her tea and I get my water. We have our laundry nights. We have "learn an English phrase night". Ama's favorite is "Good night." I will miss accidently walking in on each other, in the bathroom, in the dark, at six in the morning. She brightens my day with her special compliments and her rubbing my face. Together we have made each other laugh so hard, sometimes my stomach hurts we laugh so hard. At 90 years old, she still does nightly stretching with me. I will miss Amas's beautiful eyes, soft skin, rubber-banded shirts, aching knees, awesome laugh and smile, but beneath it all, the most amazing heart!

Ama and I just said goodbye to each other with tears and the biggest, warmest hug.  My heart if full of thankfulness and happiness that this woman has been a part of my life.  An indescribable bond and an absolutely indescribable feeling.

I miss you already. I love you forever Ama.